Monday, March 2, 2020

Feeling Better, But Not Like a Wild Goose

I never did get outside yesterday, I was so low, but I did distract myself with a movie--HouseMate has bought a large-screen TV--the first either of us have ever had.

I say "large", but by modern standards it's a "small", at 38 inches––and, as you all probably know, electronics are ridiculously cheap now. It cost less than $200.

I wouldn't have bought another piece of electronics myself, but I admit it's nicer to watch a movie on a big screen than on a laptop.

I watched a biopics, Walk the Line, about Johnny Cash. I'd loved it when it came out, and on rewatching too. I was thinking it was a recent movie, but it's from 2005. Ha! That explains why I didn't remember it very well. 

When you're low, sometimes it helps to hear about suffering. 

It cheered me up--watching someone wreck their life and then get it together. Also, my parents bought Live at Folsom Prison when it came out--I was seven--so Johnny Cash is part of my childhood.


That Joaquin Phoenix is so freakin' good, I'm even considered watching The Joker, though it looks pretty distressing. (Maybe on my laptop--the impact is smaller.)
Has anyone seen it?


Last night I started to read Ocean Vuong's On Earth We Are Briefly Gorgeous.

I can see why people love it––it's crammed with potent images––but I'm disappointed.

I do like the stories Vuong tells, but his writing is a kind I don't care for (and chose not to write)--the portentous kind, where every little thing is lustrous with significance . . . and described with words such as "lustrous".

(Maybe it's an age thing--I probably would have loved it in my twenties, when I loved Mahler.)

Vuong writes some truly great sentences. I already quoted the one about how being offered kindness is proof you are broken.

But then, sometimes a metaphor is a bit off.
For instance, "Can you tell the rain has grown heavy, its keystrokes peppering the blue shawl black?"

To me, "keystrokes peppering" is jarring. 

Does it matter?
It does.
It's like when you're eating a piece of banana bread and your tooth hits a tiny bit of walnut shell. 

For the rest of the piece, you're chewing tentatively.

I'm reading tentatively.

I don't know what you call this kind of writing.
I think of it as the Mary Oliver School of poetry. 


I like it OK, and I do see why it means a lot to people:
it's tender and validating, and so many of us are traumatized.
But a little goes a long way. 

And if it's not perfectly spot-on, it can be embarrassing.

Personally I always found Mary Oliver's "Wild Geese", many people's favorite poem, to be ridiculous. Meaning no disrespect--I can see why it means a lot to people--but this line, for instance, makes me laugh:

"You only have to let the soft animal of your body love what it loves."
I get it that if you've been told your desires are sinful and you are bad, this is redemptive.
But the soft animal of this here body thinks, 

"Yes! Beer and ice cream for dinner again!"
Which is OK––I do get to love what I love, I'm not evil for that––but I don't think that's the poet was going for.


Also, specific to me, "soft animal" is a plushie, which is also a bit ridiculous.
(My stuffed animals do love this poem! "More Treats for Bears" is their motto.)


Sometimes the writing is worse than ridiculous.
"You do not have to be good", the poem starts.
Again, if you've been humiliated with the idea that you DO have to be good, (when you were a naturally good kid), I can see that this line is a balm.


But I first read the poem when I was in the middle of a love affair with a married man, and that line was useless piffle.
It sounds to me like,

"You do not need to ground your refrigerator.
Let the electricity travel its natural path."

Finally, wild geese?
Wild Canada geese come up the Mississippi and camp out at the city lakes every year. While they look elegant in the sky and on the water, on the ground they are hostile pillows that walk, honk, and hiss at you. 
They leave the park walkways slimy with green shit.

Still, as I say, the stories are good, and I'm going to finish reading it. But then I'll pass it along.
In contrast to Penelope Fitzgerald's lean and unsentimental Bookshop, which I am keeping. She leaves no soft toys standing.

4 comments:

  1. Well, I could not disagree more strongly about Mary Oliver, but I think this proves that poetry says something different to each reader -- and perhaps something different at different points in their lives.

    (But then, I kind of like your refrigerator line, too! It's a metaphor! LOL)

    I haven't read Ocean Vuong, so I have no input on that one.

    But my parents ALSO had "Live at Folsom Prison," even though they almost never listened to popular music, and like you, I associate it with my childhood.

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  2. “Can you tell the rain has grown heavy, its keystrokes peppering the blue shawl black?”

    Gosh, I’m afraid not.

    That sentence is the kind of thing people are (too often) taught to do in MFA programs. Everything dressed up with a contrived metaphor or simile, or a couple.

    Better than that is this Rainbow Quest appearance by Johnny Cash and June Carter with Pete Seeger. It's hard to watch. Cash is pretty clearly on something, almost writhing at times, but the art is absolutely there.

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  3. STEVE: Oh, I'd love to hear what you think about Mary Oliver!
    Maybe you'd write a post about her one day?

    Many people I know love her--especially the "Wild Goose" poem, which I think acts as a balm. I'm all for that!
    (Do you disagree with that part of what I said?)

    I totally agree, people get different things out of poetry.
    I think she really hit the mark for a lot of us in the 1990s. And it seems her poetry continues to work now, too:

    "When Oliver picks her way through the violence and the despair of human existence to something close to a state of grace—a state for which, if the popularity of religion is any guide, many of us feel an inexhaustible yearning—her release seems both true and universal. As she puts it, “When you write a poem, you write it for anybody and everybody.”"
    https://www.newyorker.com/magazine/2017/11/27/what-mary-olivers-critics-dont-understand

    "Live at Folsom Prison" was a huge bestseller--I didn't realize until it's mentioned at the end of the movie.
    I guess lots of our parents had it--along with that Herb Alpert album with the lady in whipped cream! :)

    MICHAEL: Keystrokes peppering--sound like something a server at a fancy restaurant would say in describing a dish, "drizzled with... and finished with a keystroke peppering of... "

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  4. P.S. Michael: I started to watch that Rainbow Quest show--thanks. Will get back to it later, though yeah, watching Johnny Cash squirming around set me on edge!

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