If I were a youTuber...

Hello, Blogosphere!

If I were a whippersnapper youTuber, I would ask questions such as:


Q: Can you put your foot up to your ear? 
(Show your work.)

Me: Just barely.

Q: What kind of creature would you be if you were in a Bosch painting?

Me: bink said, when I asked last night, that I'd be a giant eyeball with little legs & feet, like those cute clay footed bowls from ancient Egypt.

bink wins!
That's exactly how I feel after a month of 13-hour days among the quick, the clever, and the quirky––that is, fans online––like a giant receptor with limited mobility.

I have started to think and even talk in such terms, influenced by smart & zippy youTubers such as Dan Howell [they're not all smart!]:


This is a good overview of Internet fandom.

Meanwhile, I've joined Facebook after a 3-year hiatus (friend me there! Please!) because my brain is temporarily unavailable to blog, being busy sorting out the deluge of FEELS and ideas.

It provides nice, low-level contact with people I (mostly) know, so I don't feel lonely (yay!), and you don't have to think or process much to post or read posts on FB, which is welcome.

Boy, is FB is s-l-o-w. 
It seems like while I was gone, everyone lost their gee-whizz enthusiasm for posting photos of their meals, which, frankly, I miss. I was never one to complain about selfies and vacation photos.
Now it's less personal, and more links to articles about politics and animal rescue.
Still, material incoming at a slow trot is just what my overwhelmed brain can handle, and I'm liking, though not loving, it.

I am liking––and loving!––the fandom stuff too. Massive multiplayer creativity at work. It's great. Ugly in spots, but honestly, mostly great.

 I hope to take some breaks to write here--it's good to come down to Earth.

Gamer Me

I played my first video games yesterday ^ at a friend of bink's house, who very kindly showed me the ropes (for my fandom research and for mild curiosity's sake.)

I played some Mario (platform video game--the characters run and jump around platforms); some 3D Zelda (action-adventure game); and a little bit of a FPS (first person shooter) Zombie game.

First thing I did: Walked Mario off a cliff and died.

Second thing I did: Kept Mario healthy long enough to almost get him to the next level, but then died, thus having to start all over again.

PAY OFF: Instantly understood the kid in the documentary Web Junkie who tried to throw himself out the window when his dad forced him to quit playing just when he was about to level up, thus forcing the kid to lose 4 hours of play and to start all over.

Also, playing confirmed that I have not sought out and played video games previously because my brain doesn't have the required pleasure receptor:
me playing video games is like someone who doesn't a sense of smell eating food. Why bother?

What does really interest me about games is their designers and design:
I had no idea, for instance, that Mario & Co. have shadows, and these shadows move pretty authentically with the characters.
That intrigues me---people sitting around working out how a gameworld can feel acceptably real.

What is "real enough"? 

I was impressed that when I tried to do something that isn't part of the gameplay--make Mario climb a wall--the game gave me some realistic feedback.

I felt I was in some kind of contact with the people who designed that feature of the game:
"Hi," person who thought someone might try to climb this wall. "I did try it, and I appreciate you designing the puffs of dirt that arose!"

So, that was kind of fun, but only for a few minutes. I'm really glad I did it--at least I get the lingo a little better now.